oops, i made another web site.

this is one of those situations where you have an idea, and the idea sort of unpacks itself in your mind for a while and it becomes a Big Idea and then it is so cumbersome and fraught with emotion that by the time you begin to work on it the mismatch between the complex shining beauty in your mind and the lump of crap you have started to make is so disappointing that it fizzles out completely and you deny it ever happened. does that ever happen to you? happens to me all the time.

only! except! this time! i struck while the iron was hot and made something and put it out there. i did so following the wise counsel of the heavenly spheres which helped me fell the first domino before i talked myself out of it. even though i haven’t made much headway since then (ironically i expect my personal project productivity to skyrocket when i am working at a job again), i’ve been mulling over what kind of writing i want to do. i don’t have a voice yet over there so i’m going to dump some thoughts here and maybe that will help.

every time i’ve given the “elevator pitch” for this site i have started with a negative definition. like the eternal flowing Dao, it’s easier to describe what it is not:

• hype
• content marketing for a startup
• AGI doomerism
• is it a Mind? is it a Guy?!!
• get rich quick bullshit
• make a toy app in 30 seconds bullshit
• robot makes all the decisions and i am its human thrall bullshit

i just realized tonight that i am doing this precisely because i want to be very clear about the feelings i am trying not to induce. all the shit above has really bad vibes!! it brings up in me a strong mania, like a cosmic godlike power is within arm’s reach and i should either grab on and try to claim its power or tear my hair and weep and beg it for mercy. or it pisses me off, like clearly this thread is aimed at a16z so why is it even in my feed.

what if ai but chill though. like ‘oh yeah that’s cool’. or even ‘wow that’s exciting!’ it just might be possible to squeeze some good vibes out of this technology but i will need to be severely discerning about what kind of personalities and projects i am platforming. it has to be baked into the bones.

so what does get written about? i don’t know. how about this?

i know my first actual post will be about my request for a script to help me start new blog posts on this site, one that i ran right before typing these very words. my personal touch with a power that awakened a latent curiousity and empowered me to do things that i long ago told myself i couldn’t. removing those sorts of restraints can change a person, lead them to make things they otherwise would have let sit, crystalline and perfect in their heads.

and then i guess i’ll see if anyone else has a story like that.